Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Ammunition, ammunition whats your mission

I promised myself  to make a point of creating one piece of art a month.... So here is 2, they were more work than anticipated.

As  you can see I had a lot of fun with the scanner again.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


So my child is allergic to me... Obviously not literally but his skin has REALLY cleared up.  He still has red around his eyes but ALL the sores are gone! I was told the red eyes could be from environmental allergies rather than the food allergies, it is spring after all.   Before we went on our concert date on friday I decided to breastfeed him, mostly so I could relieve the pressure and be comfortable while we were out, because the plan after all was to wean slowly.  Shortly after feeding him, he was a lot more red again.  His skin didn;t look nearly as good, that evening and into the morning the next day.  Needless to say I haven't breastfed him since.  He is now strictly on formula and his skin looks great!  Also a newstrange development.
HE SLEEPS! I don't want to jinx it but he has been sleeping.  Getting up 1-2 times a night for feedings. I had heard others talk about babies sleeping, I thought it was an urban legend of sorts.  Then it happened to me, my baby sleeps.  He even takes naps, unheard of before.  He is now taking 3 or4 naps and still sleeping at night!  I guess he had to catch up at some point.  I am hoping and praying this will continue.

Monday, May 16, 2011

A beautiful date fit for a metal head princess

I know a lot of you want to hear about how Eli is doing now, but I'm not going to talk about him today.  Today I want to talk to you about HEAVY METAL!  Some of you have been blissfully unaware for years that in your midst a person close to you, perhaps some one you love, some you trust, someone you call friend is... yes that's right a metal head!  You may have suspected, you may not have seen it coming but here I am to burst your bubble and come out of the proverbial closet. I am a metal head, and Mike is too. 
Friday night we went to Edmonton, and Eli stayed with his Auntie Char while Michael and I saw RAMMSTEIN at Rexall place.  This isn't the first time either, we saw them last summer in Quebec city as well.   It gets worse, yes that is us 2nd row from the stage, thats right I am also a mosher.  You didn't see it coming, mild mannered mother moshing! I don't body surf though, I feel like people would be feeling me up inappropriately, plus there's always the fear of being dropped on my head, and I doubt Mike would let me, for probably the same reasons.  I had started to fear that maybe with the birth of my son I had become too old and responsible, but I am happy to report I am not too old!  We had a BLAST!  It was some much needed alone time and a great stress release. 

5 ways you know you`ve seen a GREAT metal show...
1.) You wear earplugs (because you ARE kinda old after all) and your ears STILL ring
2.) FIRE! A crew member got lit up, At one point the guitarist arms were on fire as he played guitar,
there were flame throwers, Till wore giant angel wings which then proceeded to catch on fire. You could feel heat radiating from the stage, and you leave with a heat rash.
3.) Explosives!  At one point baby dolls hung from the ceiling and it didn`t take long before they exploded one by one. There were fire works and sparks everywhere.
4.)  The crowd gets shot with a cannon full of dish soap foam and large pieces of paper confetti
5.) You get squished, and I mean squished, I`d like to say we we packed in the front like sardines, but I`m pretty sure sardines have more room.  This was far from my first mosh pit although I think it was Michael`s  first.  I have to say it wasn`t the roughest I`ve seen but it was the squishiest, the most claustrophobic one I``ve ever been in.  We stayed in for quite a while but eventually moved back a little further , it was so hot I was starting to feel faint. Thats when we could get some pictures.  In both spots though it was really good.
6.)  One of the band members (Christian) hopped in a rubber dingy and surfed the crowd.
7.) Not only did the play for well over an hour and and half to begin with but they then had 2, yes 2 encores!
8.) Your husband gives earplugs to a guy who realizes gum is not effective at reducing noise levels.
9.) Stepping into a crowded room Michael suddenly transforms into a bouncer of sorts.
10.)  It was not a suckquake of a show that was a complete wastenado of your 300 bucksonsoon.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Breast vs formula

Okay, okay, we ALL know the answer to this question.  It is after all its pounded into our brains by the health district and society in general. We all know that if you can breast is best.  Now having said that I started Eli on formula today.  Why?  Well I'm glad you asked.  Today was yet another doctors appointment to try to figure out this skin problem that he has. "Extremely severe eczema" is what the pediatrician calls it.  Cause: Allergies.  But what could a baby who is exclusively breast fed be allergic to? Apparently it is possible to be allergic to the protein in their mothers milk.  Or possibly something I am eating.  He is betting on the protein.  So with formula no other food will be getting in, we know whats in it. He gave us a special hypo-allergenic formula that breaks down the protein.  If that doesn't work we try another one that breaks it down even more.  Many of you know that I too have fairly bad eczema.  He kept asking me what I am allergic too because maybe that would give us a hint as to what Eli is allergic too, and I kept saying I really don't know.  So I am going to ask my doctor to send me for allergy testing, I know it could take a while, but they won't do it on a baby and its worth a shot.

Eli is NOT at all happy about this formula idea the first feeding went REALLY bad. I am persistent however and by the second feed he actually took it really well.  (He wasn't as hungry this time, so a little less frantic.  Plus I put a little breast milk in it, not much but I will slowly decrease that amount until he is getting only formula.) 

Yes it is sad to quit but if it has any chance of helping him than I am going take that chance.  Oh yeah also the fact that he itches and then rubs his eyes is giving him eye infections, so we have to try to take care of that as well.

Friday, April 29, 2011

April's drawing

I said I would post at least one drawing or painting or something creative a month.  Well its April.29th and here it is... I have so many ideas right now, we will see how many pictures we get for May.  This has no title as I am extremely bad at titles. It was done entirely in Sharpie markers.  Usually I work on something like this for a whole day and get it all done at once, however a certain little person has made that impossible so this piece took me probably a week to complete.

In other news on whim pretty much (there really wasn't a plan to do so until the night before.)  Eli and I and Keta too, went to Drayton Valley for Easter to visit with Michael's side of the family.  I was a little nervous okay a lot nervous about driving 6 hours with a small baby and a large drooling dog all by myself, but it actually went quite well and I am glad I did.  Eli was able to spend some time with his other grandparents and see his very proud Auntie.  All in all a very successful outing.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Mish mash of stuff

First, Dairy free seems to have been a bust.  Eli's eczema is worse than ever in fact he has been so uncomfortable and scratching so much the skin has got infected.  He is now wearing socks on his hands to keep him from scratching.  We saw another doctor yesterday, got an antibiotic and a 3rd cortisone cream  to try.  I had asked for a referral to a dermatologist for him but it looks like that isn't gonna happen for a while, my dermatologist is on holidays 'til the end of May and the only other one in saskatoon said they are booking into fall.  So we are just going to have to tough it out and try as much as we can until we can get in to see someone.  I've also thought about taking him to a homeopathic doctor to see if we can make any improvements that way.  I am willing to try anything at this point, I just really want him to feel better.

Second, I really want to get back into my art work and just using some of my creative energy.  I definatly think that I feel better when I am creating, so you dear readers (reader? lol) are my witness that I want to make a commitment to have at lease one drawing/painting done a month.  It's very important to me that I keep that part of my life going and there are times when I have an hour or two here and there and I think its good to do something productive with my time.  Its something that I feel keeps me sane and keeps me, me.  I will post my work here.

Third and finally, Some of you know that I just came out surgery. I had a repair that needed... well repairing.  Having Eli took a lot out of my body and it was something that I really needed.  I can now look forward to another 6 week healing process.  I have to say though it was awesome to see my family come together and really help me out.  Mike watched Eli overnight while I was in the hospital.  Not an easy feat, especially when you are missing a key body part ;).  My parents watched him too and really encouraged me to stay with them and take the time to heal.  They gave me a lot of support and just being around to watch the baby so I could rest when I needed to rest.  They were awesome, but I was getting home sick, so we are home now and just taking it easy.  Surgery was last Tuesday and we got home yesterday evening.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

I'm an optimistic pessimist

This is just something that I thought was pretty funny and worth posting.  Now when I look at my post baby body I don't have anything bad to say, just that I wish I had appreciated my body before I had Eli.  Then I think that I didn't appreciate my body in high school then it has gotten progressively worse, well not worse just different, this leaves me thinking that I shouldn't think badly about my body anymore, I should just appreciate it now because its just down hill from here. Now I realize that, that is pretty pessimistic.  I think my pessimism is pretty funny.  I blogged before about my expectations around having a new baby in the house.  Of course I thought it would be so bad that I was pleasantly surprised and now I wonder if I'm not an optimistic pessimist. 
My best friend is a CRAZY optimist, she thinks the best of everything and usually she's disappointed.  I think that we make a hilarious pair.  We went to New York City together and we stayed in hostil.  When we got to our room I was so happy I thought wow we did really well, we have our own room, the door locks, there is even a tv in the room, its not nearly as dumpy as I anticipated.  You couldn't ask much more for 25$ a night.  On the other hand she was super disappointed saying that it was dumpy and she expected  there to be a kitchen in our room, she thought the room would be bigger and there would be a view of the city. (Our room looked out on a brick wall, but hey that's better than looking out on some adult book store or something. lol)  All this to say that some days I think my pessimism turns out to be an asset.