Saturday, November 27, 2010

Rapunzel rapunzel

SO here are some pictures of those aforementioned hair extensions...
I love my web cam.  Any way I am wearing it up in a pony tail like the first picture for now, its a lot of hair and never having had long hair I'm not really sure what to do with it all.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Baby shower and reflections of beauty.

This past Sunday was my baby shower, Nicole did a great job of organizing everything.  Here is a picture of the beautiful cake she had made for the party.
I was a good day and I was really thankful for all the gifts that we received.  Its hard to believe that we are finally at 37 weeks.  I'm starting to get more and more uncomfortable its strange how fast things change I really felt okay last week, now I feel really achy, huge and tired.  

About a month ago I bought some clip in hair extensions, and today they finally came in the mail. I am excited they look really cool, I just need to practice putting them in so you can't tell.  It's neat to be able to see what my hair would look like if it was longer and just to play around with different things.  I love experimenting with my hair and makeup, but having said that I'm trying really hard not to be too obsessive about looks.  I feel like it is really a fine line, there really is a push from society that we need to look presentable and put together to be in the world and there is a sense where I do agree with that.  Taking care of yourself is definitely a reflection on the person whether that is a good or bad thing it is the truth.   On the other end of things you don't want worry about your looks so much that you become someone who spends all their time money and energy on beauty, and it thereby becomes an idol.  This is a concept I think I struggle with a little bit.  I wonder where presenting ones self in a favorable light stops and obsession starts.  I have not yet come to a place where I am happy with where I am in that continuum. I think it is made harder yet by the fact that I enjoy trying new things I enjoy fashion and beauty.  I geuss there is a line where a hobbie or an interest becomes something more than that but when that hobby or interest becomes something that you have to do each day the line gets blurred even more.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Change of heart

Today my mighty hunter went out and came home with a deer for us.  Now lets rewind 3 years.... I was terrified of guns and not only horrified but disgusted with the idea of hunting.  Fast forward to today and I not only am overjoyed and super thankful with Michael's recent kill, but I also own my own gun, I plan on trying to hunt pheasant next year. (When I'm no longer pregnant)

There are so many benefits that hunting brings our family.  It give Michael such a sense of accomplishment, that he has really provided for his family.  It fills our freezer.  I know with certainty that the meat we get is antibiotic hormone free.  Its free range, and it is so lean there really isn't any fat on it at all, so much so that when Mike makes it into sausage he has to add pork just so there is enough fat to bind it all together so it won't fall apart.   One deer has lasted us a whole year.

As for believing that hunting is a barbaric act, there are so many things that I didn't know about it.  People cannot just go out and shoot anything that they want, they have to have tags there are limits as to how many animals you can have.  Most hunters take great pains to not allow the animal to suffer any.  There are stringent gun laws to obey, which most people don`t realize, there are conservation officers out enforcing all of this.

I also think its important to note that most of us don`t know where our food really comes from and unless you are a strict vegetarian a lot of the food we eat has come from an animal and someone had to kill that animal.  It has given me a new appreciation for the animals that sacrifice their lives for us.  I think that all of us have to exam whether we are okay with an animal dying for our meals.  That is something that I am okay with, because I believe we have dominion over animals, but so many of us go to the grocery store and pick up prepackaged meat without ever giving it any thought at all. 
So all of that to say that I am thankful for my husbands ability to put food on our table and for open my eyes to all these things.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Preparation and more scans

Yesterday was the big day, my last shift at work!!! Officially my mat leave starts tomorrow but my last shift was yesterday.  Which also make me 34 weeks.  I'm starting to wonder if I should pack that hospital bag, but it seems way too early I was going to have it ready for 37 weeks full term.  Then I start thinking well if I'm packing my bag and I want the car seat installed and all that good stuff down for 37 weeks, should I start thinking about staying in Saskatoon around that time?  But if I do, it could be a long stay especially if I go overdue... So much to think about.  I started making meals to freeze for those times when I have a screaming baby I'm hungry and I don't want to cook.  So far I have 3 ziplock bags of Zummaborscht (its Mennonite soup), 2 lasagnas, 2 baked chicken fettuccine alfredo, 2 homemade bbq chicken calzones and I just finished some homemade ravioli... I'll probably make some more soups and some shepards pies maybe some potpies too.  I want a lot to chose from, give myself no excuse to stop eating, because if I am going to be this babies primary food source I should really make sure that I am healthy and taken care of too.

A couple of new scan pictures still working on it but I definatley have a favorite in this batch.

 This one was hard to get but it is my favorite.  Its hard to press the button while your head and arms are on the scanner :)